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I'll leave it up to you I guess. I'm thinking of leaving Y/A. I only come on here when i'm at work anywho. I never come on at home. I really think this site is ridiculous. I get violations for voicing an honest opinion. And I just got two thumbs down when I wasn't even being sarcastic or mean. I think this site has way too many kids on it. I just read an answer that said "ima kid i kno these things". No honey you are a kid and infact no nothing. I think they should make a Y/A section for the adults. Anywho.....What do you think Y/A. Is it time for this Angel to spread her wings and fly?

Also i am writing a book which is comming out in stores soon here is a site i made myself on it. www.freewebs.com/teamsniperofficial I am so bored so yeah please give me ideas on what to do

Anyone knows what should i do? And btw, im here in canada

my gf tells me that i have a big penis but i think that its just average if anything. do girls usually lie to their partners about that just to make their man happy (kinda like how some girls fake orgasms) ? it would be nice to get some honest opinions on it but i don't wanna be posting those kinda things on here lol

im at my friends house sitting here on the comp while they jerk each other off.. what should i do.. there both boysim seventeen

they want me to provide them with information i do not have, or bite the bullet, how do i co-operate enough to get out of this? it was one joint. how do i appeal to an officer to just let it go without having to provide him with anything? whats my strategy here!*Update* well im in the proccess of getting them some information, i have untill tuesday, but they want me to set up buys personally from what i was told, and that puts me at a BIG risk. i have no problem fishing information out for them though. will see what happens tomorrow when we speak i guess. if i offer to fish information and randomly over the next week - 2 weeks provide them with what i have, do you think that's something they would generally go for? or would they consider that illegal ? as i would be "drug seeking" in the proccess to provide them with the info.

well this kid, is one of the best things that has happened to me in a long time. and frankly i dont know what to do with out him. e'll be there through the highs and lows. and he sounds like the perfect uy but trust me theres more! i dont know my best friend would never do anything with him and shes there to look out for me. but should i worry if he talks the same way to her as he talks to me?. im not sure but to me that sounds a little fishy. and i want to talk to him about it but its like if i do he'll think that i dont trust him. but after what i've been through in the past its hard to trust guys. i told him im just confused. i like him a bunch and he "supposedly" likes me. (remember the quotation marks) so i need some help here. should i stay away from him or go for it? should i keep me gaurds up or let them fall? HELP ME !

Ok here is the situation. I have been dating this girl for 4 months and i really like her and all maybe even more. But we have had sum bad times I mean she broke up wirth me like twice in these 4 months and said she was just actin dumb and she has a temper and all and gets mad alot or whatever but anyways for the last couple weeks she has really been good to me. She has gotten alot less jealous and quit going through my phone and she is nicer but a week ago i met this other girl who i like and she likes me and she says she wil wait for me until i break up with my gf whether it takes 1 day or 1 year. I like her but i really like my gf too and i dont know what to do> Any advice

When composing an email, I like to use a "subject heading ", but because I have previously used certain headings, now, I can't seem to use new original headings. I am self taught on here and I can't seem to delete any of the previous headings, or clear subject history. Can any one help please. I am at a loss and don't know what else to do. Cindy W.

okay so i work at the mall and there's this cute rican girl that works across from the store i work at. i have to emphasize that shes hispanic b/c i've never dated a hispanic girl before (even though i'm hispanic) and either way i'm bad at telling if girls like me or not. so here's the history. i met her and we talked a bit and i really like her. by the time i decided to see if she'd be interested in hanging out after work she got a boyfriend. so i didn't sweat it because hey, there's plenty of other fish in the sea. anyway i still tried to hang out with her and got the vibe that she didn't like me like that so i let it go. Since then i haven't seen her much because my shifts have changed. that was about 2 or 3 weeks ago. then today, to my surprise, she swings by on her day off and talks to me. she told me she'd been looking over here alot to see if i'm working when she is but i haven't been. we flirted a bit but i don't know what to make of her.....what do you guys think?also her friend that was with her brought something up. when i tried to say bye to them she was like no i'm not your homie we do it like this, and she does the kissing on the cheek thing that latinas do. and when i went to do it to the chick i think is cute, she kinda seemed a bit embarassed and giggly.....i'm so confused.....plus we're kind of opposites. she does the preppy hollister thing while i do more of a "rugged thing" with a bit of scruff. i wear a bunch of differnt things though like lucky brand to dickies work outfits (i know i know) and i throw on my tall tee's every once in a while. just thought i'd add in those small details....i know i'm not the most attractive guy but do you think i gotta chance? here's a couple of pix of me...http://b1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/00774/19/69/774399691_l.jpghttp://a914.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/27/l_053cc56f6d2d83d0d20954fec734f441.jpghttp://a432.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/61/l_61f1c4afd051b45b63199e51c04432b7.jpg

I love her and here's why. She speaks the truth. Most of her comments are common sense. I believe that the things she says are no different than what we might say to a partner while watching the news. Tonight it was a woman that left a child at a Wal-Mart, just abondoning the porr little child. She basically portrayed her as a monster. That is what someone that leaves a 2 year old in a Wal-Mart is. Another night it was a mother who's baby ingested Heroin. What else are you if not a horrible person. If people believe she is biased then they shouldn't get the news from her. I like her her and love her outspoken attitude. I am asking for specific instances that you saw on her show such as interviews or stories where you felt she was incorrect her opinion. Therefore causing a dislike for her. i'm just curious because I don't see her as being so awful

okay so this question has no real answer, but i just wanted to hear your opinoins.here goes: my brother commited suicide a few years ago. a few nights before he did it, i kept having dreams about him. for example: one was where our whole house was on fire and everyone was outside except me and my brother [Aaron]. and he was still asleep on the couch. so of coarse i went to wake him up and tried abajillion times but he just wouldnt. my dad pulled me away from him and out of the house. then it ended.there were other dreams similar to this; i would try to help but failed every dream, more like nightmare. i was young and little but its like someone or something was trying to tell me what was to happen.this may sound silly but a very similar thing happend when my guinea pig died.anyway, you may think i sound stupid but i honestly dont care i just wanted to hear from you. so any stories or beliefs or explanations?? whatever. i'd like to hear from you very much! mucho x33

I didn't know I was pregnant until 17 weeks and drank heavily until then. I was on the implant for 4.5 yrs, only had 2 periods during that time, and when I came off it I had no periods then either. And I've already had a load of sarcastic answers to a previous question saying how can you not know you're pregnant so please don't bother answering if you're one of them. I was looking up fetal alcohol syndrome last night again. I know what it is etc. And I read that it can make babies 'jump' in the womb. I saw a video on youtube of a baby jumping in the womb, and my baby was moving too, exactly in time to it.So after posting a question on here last night and getting some rather nasty asnwers, I went to bed in tears, and when my baby moved as normal at night I laid on my stomach so I didn't have to feel her move.And now when she moves I dont' know whether it's normal. She moves in the morning and at night. She tends to move quite rythmically every 5 secs or so. I'm 25wksI'm 25 weeks gone. Is it normal for the baby to move every 5 secs or so? Or this her twitching cos of fas? I hate it when she moves now, and I used to love it.And I don't need any more nasty answers either, but I would appreciate anyone who's been in the same boat - I'm on email if you don't want to put details on here.I don't want to go to the hospital/Dr - I don't want other people involved. And there's no way they can tell at this stage anyway.She moves in the morning a bit, not in the afternoon - I work and wear tighter clothes during the day.She moves a lot in the evening in the bath, after my bath and when I go to sleep. But since last night I just think she's twitching or fitting or something and hate it.Do these movements sound in line with what's normal?

Over 100 years a "Political" radical organizer made this statment: "a strong central government must have it's hand over the people; it is needed to insure our equal distribution of our wealth" (Karl Marx)... Just the other day, a young "political" organizer made this statment: "a strong government hand is needed to insure that we have our resources equally available and our commonwealth for our people. (Barack Obama). Anyone see "Anything" here...?

----------------------Aiming to take forward the successful application of community based approaches using a cash transfer mechanism, ATT volunteers living in villages to facilitate community processes, and an incremental learning approach from the shelter programme, it changed the focus to integrated community based disaster risk reduction and disaster preparedness.

2005 n 2006 herewhat about yall?

A few weeks' ago I had 2 dreams and I feel they are related.1) I found myself in a huge circus.. they were so many people and so many little performances here and there that I did not even know what to look at. I felt kinda lost.A few weeks' later, I had another dream.2) This time I was performing in the circus. I can't remember exactly what kind of performance but I woke up in a state of shock to find that rather than being in a circus, I am now involved in a circus!!I have a gest of what this dream means. But a clarification would be good. Obviously this is related to something that happened recently. Please also clarify what a circus means.

I'm 26 years old and I have never been able to swallow pills. I have managed to gag down a couple here an there throughout my life, but I am MUCH more comfortable just taking chewables or liquids. Personally, I don't think there is any problem with me doing this for the rest of my life. Every medication that I have ever needed (antibiotics included) have been available to me in liquid or chewable. Even after I had extensive oral surgery, I had chewable narcotic pain relievers and liquid antibiotic. So, why is it that I receive so much ridicule from doctors that I can't swallow pills? I even had my Primary Care Physician laugh at me and tell me that I was being silly and that as an ADULT I needed to grow up and learn how to swallow pills. He said that only children take liquids and chewables. But, so what?! What are your opinions about this? Why are doctors prejudiced against people who choose not to take pills?As a side note, I do not mind swallowing bad tasting liquids or chewables. In my mind, it's a whole lot more comfortable for me to do that than gagging down a pill. Also, I've found that some medicines (like Oxycotin) work faster if you chew them instead of swallowing a pill. I think this must be because the stomach doesn't have to break down the outer layers of the capsule or tablet first - it just gets absorbed almost immediately.To comment on "Dad is dead" entry, I think my mother and I have the same problem. My mom can't swallow pills either and we both have very small mouths and esophagus'. I had a dentist tell me this.

here is the thing.at the beginning of the school year i made a lot of friends then but know i realized that i hate them! dont now why but some of them spread false rumors obout me, so at that moment i made them my enemies and those enemies tried to make the friend that i had my enemies too, .now that they know that all they said obout me was false they text and call me every day like nothing happened .friends dont judge they help you! plus all of my friends are a bounch of stupids!they act like they know everything and they try their best to make u feel bad obout yourself.lets be honest they dont know shit that i hate them, they think that it was just a misunderstanding.bull^#6^ now is just hypocrisy from my side from thers i dont even care.so what shoud i do? fix everything like nothing happened or should i try to find new ones?

SwampertRelaxed (+def., -speed), TorrentLevel 53 stats:HP: 218ATTK: 122DEF: 152SP.A: 113SP.D: 110SPEED: 63I "attempted" to EV train cuz i'm bad at it and those are its stats. I don't know if I EV trained effectively, but oh well. I was aiming for 240HP, 212 Def, and 56 SP.Attack to make it a mixpert-special and physical sweeper and tank.Here's the other one:SwampertBrave (+ATTK,-speed)-cuz its already slow, TorrentLevel 53 stats too:HP: 187ATTK: 137DEF: 121SP.A: 139SP.D:126SPeed:74This one's stats are interesting because its ATTK and SP.A are close (137 vs. 139) so its also a mixed sweeper/mixpert. Also, defenses are split (def-121 vs. sp.def.126), but it has less HP than the first one/previous one. Suprisingly, this one's speed is more than the first ones. I forget what i tried to EV train it as, but i'm thinking i gave it a lot of SP.A, some ATTK, and split the rest between HP and SP.DEF.Please tell me which u think is better.thanks.

i was wondering if anyone could tell me Dj Cass's real nameif you dont know her here is her myspace you might no when you hear musicmyspace.com/djcassmusicthanks

ok so i recently applyed for a job in a resturant . im 19, i have worked in a few resturants and i find its always hard for me to get a job for some reason. I like constant stimulation so i figure that this has always been the perfect job for me, flexable around my college sched ect. so moving on to the point i applyed for this job, i wasnt expecting to it kinda just happened i talked to the manager he seemed super eager, thought we hit it off well, he told me he would deff call within a few days, its now a 1 1/2 weeks later and no call no nothing. im not really sure what happened. i usually can tell when people arent to interested but im not sure what happened here. my parents said its beacause they dont wanta hire overely good looking people. im by no means like adriana lima beautiful but im not horrible but i did notice that everyone who worked there was average looking. so any help would be much appreciated :)

Here is what he looks likehttp://img512.imageshack.us/my.php?image=uglyasseltonom7.pngWould he be considered a chick magnet in Australia ?

Ok. basically I met her 2 years ago. we been on and off since being together, the longest was actaully 4 months I think.A nyways, we bumped into each other a couple months ago and we hanged and stuff and I ask if she still has feelings and she said yes cuz she thinks I am special and can't see herself with other guys. But here is the thing... things r going great... then out of nowhere she ignores me again and i asked what ws wrong? she says that everytime we get close she pushes me away because she is nervous to get close to me... She said it ain't me... its just the fact that people have been hurting her so much in the past.. ex's, parents, friends., etc.and she said she needed time.So I gave her time and guess what? This is where I need your help.(We r in college by the way and coincidentally have class together) I noticed that she is getting close with some guy in our class.WAS SHE JUST PLAYING WITH ME? or is she just afraid like she said and flirting with him to distract her mind.

my periods are still slighly irregular.i have had 21 days in between periods, then 19, and 24 days. my last period had 35 days in between and that was the longest ive ever had! then this month, i STILL havent had it and its been 43 days! whats up here!. i have had sex, im not ruling out pregnancy. i just dont know what to think.it could be just really irregular this month, orrr pregnancy. ive been stressed but i dont know how long your period could hold out for. can you give me ideas? suggestions/? if my period doesnt come within another week, im takin a pregnancy test as last resort. please dont be harsh..i just want to know i dont know waht to do.

My son is wanting to join the Australian Defence Force and has passed the first part of the application, but - we need to get permanent residency before they can proceed further. We are NZ citizens arriving in Australia 2004, owning our own house and residing here. I need to know what we need to do or where we go to get this done urgently. There seem to be lots on citizenship but nothing detailed enough explaining Permanent residency for NZ'rs, we know the law changed on 2001

I'm different from the other Americans here... Funny how I'm a teen and more open minded than adults here. I sometimes try to research whats going on on other parts of the world or observe other cultures. If people criticize my country for it's flaws, I listen and observe but don't get defensive because they are true. Also over here a lot are obsessed with race and different cultures are not respected. I might want to become Canadian one day because I feel that my character fits one. I also want my kids to get along with others regardless of race. I want them to be open and educated. So is it difficult to become a Canadian citizen?

I'm 15 years old, soon turning 16 and I'm a size 0. I'm 5.6ft tall with long brown hair. My friends all say i could be a model, but i don't know. I don't really have the confidence to, and i wouldnt want to do catwalk modelling, I would just be in magazines and stuff.Here are some pictures on my myspace;http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=106431611&albumId=0What do you think ?

terror.Most people on here seem to admit our government is stupid, and admit that the Bush Administration has done nothing to keep terrorists out of the US. Cause if you all actually think that Obama is a terrorist. Then you have called the war on terror a failure. What is it?

I'm at a loss as to which category to place this question. Can I add that my query is not of a vulgar nature, intead it is of a scientific nature. I suppose then, I have answered myself, and should have placed this in one of the sciences---what the heck, here goes:After ya poop, do you look back to inspect (ahem!---visually, I mean ) it?I do! I suspect one checks the number two, as a way of monitoring #1's health----seriously.Pale floaties, as an example might indicate liver or gall bladder problems, and .... well you know what I mean. What do you sthink?I could swear that I've witnessed other mammals doing this too! But, I think we do, somehow do a 'health status check'. Who knows? There might be 'psychological' reasons involved. Some affirmation process.

He says he loves me all the time. He's real latino which might have somthing to do with it. I'm cool with just being friends (and have told him so) but I'm getting so that I don't even want to be his friend. He really gives these sorry excuses that insult my intelligence and my heart. We did srart with a full blown realtionship but I am married and he thinks that divorce takes just a weekend for something. I am 7 years older than him and he lives with his Mami and frankly, I don't want to turn a blind eye anymore. Most of my ex's are still friends to me (he tried to make me get rid of all my male friends when we started just to give you an idea of what we are deailng with here), but if he wants to be my friend he is sooo messing it up. Please help me understand.

All summer long is the name of it. What other song does it sound like ( and not the sweet home Alabama part of it).. .If you haven't heard it.... here's the song:http://www.musicremedy.com/k/Kid_Rock/videos/All_Summer_Long-21235.html

it is hot here ,i dont like summer very very much . right now i need get swimwear , i find a nice in this link http://www.goodsdrop.com/category.php?id=36plz let me know what your mind

I have a friend who's visiting me from Florida. He's never been to Chicago and I've lived about an hour southwest of Chicago my entire life. I've been there countless times in my life. He's only able to be here for a day and he wants to go see the city. Since I've been here my entire life what do you suggest I take him to see? There are so many things in the city I have no idea where to start...

Well, i want to build muscle, but here is the problem; i have too good of a metabolism. 5'7 and weigh about 140pounds. No matter what i eat i just stay at this weight. I have like no fat on my arms or anything. And i don't even have to workout to get abs. (small though). I wanna gain some muscle, but to do that i need to gain some fat. But it isn't working for me. And because i can't gain fat and muscle, it makes me a small guy. So help please???

Ok so heres the story:My Crush - I've known him since I was 4 years old and I've liked him for 3 years and he's soooo cute!!! He looks like a mini Zac Efron (No kidding!!!) Anyway he's from England, he's tanned, he's fairly nice and I actually know him!!! We used to be best friends as kids.The Guy who likes me- I only found out from a friend today that he has a massive crush on me and I don't even know him!!! Apparently he's pretty cute, fairly nice and likes me.....me, a dorky chick who slouches and is really ugly. Anyway I don't even know what he looks like and I haven't ever talked to him!!!So who do I choose, My Crush who lives 2 hrs away or My Admirer who goes to my school and likes me even thought I'm unpopular.I had no idea he liked me and my friend said it was obvious because he always looked at me when I was around him. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHO HE WAS!!!HELP!!!Thanks!!!xx

Okay, so i finally had sex with my boyfriend. We did it twice. Both times we used a condom. The first time he pulled out before he came, and the second time he didn't at all. So here's my question: we were really careful so what exactly are my chances of getting pregnant? I'm 17 years old, if you must know so...I'd really love to not get pregnant. Help me out...I was safe so I should be okay...right?

Have I missed much happening on here at all?What is the best question or answer you have seen this week?

here are the lyrics: "then the evil endured by the silence of name, good man stays silent and all of us betrayed" and more lyrics" just watching from the side, careful to cover the fear that they might hide"and more lyrics-"silence is golden or thats what they say"PLEASEE LET ME KNOW...I NEED TO KNOW WHAT THIS SONG IS CALLED!!

When we are far he looks and when I catch him staring at me he looks down immidiatley or pretends to look out the window, and sometimes he just stays there in shock ( like once he came out of this classroom and i was near there he saw me and like didn’t know what to do he stayed there shocked and turned around and walked away – i feel weird because i think he thinks i like him and that i m always looking at him. He NEVER talks to his friends about me – every time i use to ask his friends if he thot I liked him his friend will always say ‘’omg no he doesn’t – he doesn’t even talk about you Please tell me what you really think.yeah he confuses me he looks at me so much yet sometimes when i catch him staring he gives me this '' what?'type of face ( one eyebrow lifts type of thing)but goes red,. I act like mean towards him i think, whenever im near him i look at him like with an angry facial expression and stuff but i only do that bcoz i dotn want him thinkin i like him and also coz i think he dislikes me for the fact i liked him last yr.everyone is saying his shy in here- but i dont think so, my friends think his shy too but i dont think so coz he had gone out with 3 ppl from our school already.Please tell me what you really think, he confuses me, i act towards him like he is bothering me and stuff and he does the same thing i do to him, but sometimes i think whether he does it for the reason i do it or because he really hates me.Once last week i spoke to him for like 3 seconds ( i asked a silly stupid question) and all he said was like 3 words, he started of looking at me and finished of not looking at me at all and i was like oh okay then.Oh and also ppl have been saying that he likes this girl, who I thot wasn’t a threat coz shes like a tomboy kind of person and he is always with her, I thot they were just friends and thathe wuldnt like her but apparently everyone sayin he does.i dont think his using her to make me jeolous - he seems tio like her presence and his always talking to her and sat next to her yet he always stares at me, like today we were in class and she wasnt there and he was just staring at me once in a while and then 5 minutes later she came and he avoided me and only peaked sometimes from corner of his eyes.But he still looks at me, and today I completely ignored him, I am in a way mad that he keeps staring at me and making me feel awkward for nothing.

(I WILL START WITH ABOUT US)About David) he is 32 years old, tall, Italian, skinny, black hair, brown eyes, tattoos and a lip ring, and tounge ring, (sorry I love his details) and is into animal rights like me and we are both lacto-vegetarian, he is a lawyer, and graduated from Berkeley, we live together in Chicago, you know where Harpo is right?About me) Italian, short, skinny, blond hair, brown eyes, 3 piercings, Lacto vegetarian, and in love with David!=we have alot in common I cant even go into detail, but you got the image now heres the question.....THE QUESTION:My parents hate the age difference, but David and I dont get it and we are happy so tell me what can I do to persuade my parents and family to be nice to David and do you agree with my family or me and David, oh yeah, our wedding date is July 10th! Yay!!!!!!!PLEASE HELP!!

Here's the story: I'm about to go to college and would like to invest into a nice set of speakers. My problem is that I am torn between the infamous Martin Logan Purity speakers ($3000/ pr) and a full surround system for about the same price. (Klipsch Rf-82s plus rs42 surrounds, rc-52 center, and rw10 sub with a nice receiver.) The fact is that the Logans are probably the cleanest sounding speakers i have ever listen to yet would mainly be used for music and some movie use. Being that I am about to go to college I would not be able to use a full surround system too often, yet the towers would be easy for movie or music set up. What do you think?

Alright, I'm a 10th grade student studying abroad in Asia, but I grew up in New York, and i'm sure most people know that New York is a great place for acting and actors etc. I love acting, but I know nothing about it! I did some plays in elementary school, but that's it! then I moved here! Now that I see all the famous actors, and watch more tv, movies, etc.I'm intrigued by this world of acting! just one thing...dunno how and where to start? there's nowhere to study acting here where I am...so how about doing it online? and maybe some at school. I could move to a developed country to study acting (btw..im american, so my english is fluent, english, italian, spanish and chinese) Anyway...someone wanna help me out and tell me how I can start acting? From scratch..cuz I have no idea what to do to start! Thank you all! :-) All answers are appreciated!

i loved it it was so goodthat song is so good its a bit different to wat they usually do but its reeeeeeeeeallly good i love itif u havent seen it heres the linkhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9QK29vHkQLcwat did u think?did u like big robs rapping?

I'm in high school (going into sr year) and all I know is that she's at least one year older than me. I've seen her like twice before when going to turn in the application to where I now work. She seemed friendly/flirtatious (but aren't all women really...) and today (my first real day at work) I got to talk to her for a few minutes while working, but nothing to in depth...just some general background stuff. I'm not sure if I should wait a few weeks and see if all these crazy feelings go away or I should ask her out sometime. ah, i don't know what to do. Crushes like this happen very rarely for me, but they pass by rather quickly. The thing is if I don't do anything/miss my chance, then I'm going to feel very dumb. I have no clue what to do!!! Ah, someone help me out please. Anyone else ever been in this situation? It would seem too strange just to ask her out now without getting to know here, but I work at a place where i may not get the chance often. Anyone help? ThanksK, thanks everyone. I'd like to hear if anyone else has had this same problem/how they dealt with it. I guess I'll wait a few days/maybe a week or so and see how things go at work. I guess if it happens it'll happen. :/

"give me a lap dance and ill make it rain. baby girl is so mesmerizing got you fantasying. unbelievable how your body is calling for me."

My hub and I are separating..ive moved out (but staying in the same apt bldg) for our 2 yr sons sake. We are expecting again, (an oops!) i'm feeling very alone, and my hub doesnt seem to be understanding or supportive. I am not considering divorce because the reason for ME choosing to move out was because of the const. fighting. we need space!Now he thinks that I want to divorce..i havent CONSIDERED it! he doesnt get it! he thinks we are over!I love him..does he love me? i think he does but cant express it...hes upset that i left..he says he talked to a lawyer for advice...he wants us to sit down and write everything out on paper that we own...an agreement of who takes what...I am left feeling confused! today he was telling me about a house he wants to rent out, our son needs a back yard he says.. heres the catch..his mom will live in a sep. suite in the bsmt..to help us out financially I cant stand her! what does he want from me??

Hi my name is Keith and I am 45 years old. Here is my story. I am Diabetic Type 2 and with high blood pressure and I am deaf on my right ear and wear a hearing aid in my left ear, my right knee is shot but still can walk for amount of time I can't run or climb or crawl or lift more then 20 pounds. I had a good job and my knee has force me to slow down due to the pain and it was an all day standing up job and they could not get me a sit down job so they had to let me go which I lost insurance. And I file for unemployment till my time ran out and they said I could not get any more so I been trying to find a sit down job and lots of company does not want a person that's may get hurt on the job and they don't want to take any risk at all, so I been turn down many job and I had to move in with my mother to help me on my bills and she is 74 years old and she had to keep working in order to help me. I been fighting for Social Security for getting on Disability but was turn down twice now I hire a lawyer and they said it will take up to 23 months for me to get on Disability. Now I am flat broke with no money and bills are stacking up as I try to earn cash for mowing yards to pay some of them. I only get $65.00 every two weeks for mowing grass and that's only pay for part of bill and need to put gas in my car, but the cost of gas is also killing me I haul my niece to driver Ed in school and my sister keep saying she giving me some gas money but never did and I know she won't because she spend it before I see the money and she has borrow lots of money from me and I got back about 40% of it and I will never seen the rest again. Her husband work and he lives on like first class and he don't dare give any of his money out even when he needed the money I was there to help them but they don't help me and I had to give it up and they know I am broke and the don't even try to help me. They both have good jobs but they don't think about helping her brother from what I done to help them when they were in a bad financial trouble and I get them out of trouble. I had to work harder to earn more money to help them out. Now I am broke and can't get a job and they don't think about me. I been applying for help such as SSI or help to get some food stamps but I was turn down, why it my luck I can't get any help from them? I file for my 2007 federal tax and I thought I was going to get an economic stimulus check, but I found out I was not qualify to get one and that really hurt me it's like no one cares and I am hurting very bad and I cry inside me asking what can I do how will I pay my bills and let my mother retire but she is also don't have a lot of money not because of me she only works 10 hours a week but paying the bills really hurts us. We get by but we can't afford anything such as going out to eat or going on a vacation. But my sister and her husband and her daughter does they go to Florida every year and that hurt us like they are enjoying time off while we can't even afford to do that. The cost of gas and food just killing us, not only us the world too. My dream is to turn over a new leaf but I can't even do that yet. And I would love to have my knee replace but I can't even do that I cannot get any help for this, if I had my knee replace I would go out and get a job and might go back to my old job as one of the workers says to me if I get my knee back in shape they would take me back in a heart beat they like my work there and I always do my job right and they can't find anyone like me but they said my knee what got them afraid I might get hurt and they don't want to take any chance on that. My Diabetic is not going to stop me from working once I get my knee replace (If I ever do) and I always wish if I has enough money to pay all my bills off and tell my Mom to quit her job and retire and go see her sister which she can't afford to. That's my story and it's no lie and I am asking anyone what can I do to make my life a lot easier then what I am now! Can anyone please help me please? If you have any suggestion please e-mail me at Bad2thebones63@aol.com